Tuesday, 28 September, 2010

I don’t like what’s happened recently. L

Lately she’s been moody and I knew something happened and I just can’t get to know what had really happened. I asked and asked but she would keep saying nothing and nothing and more nothing. And when I really tried asking for the very last time she would say it’s too late to even ask. I don’t really know what I can do to make her speak up more. I comfort her and gave her time to open up to me by not giving her too much pressure but still nothing was explain by her.

At this point of time, I thought maybe it’s my fault that I upset her or something. So I apologize and mention that if I upset her or something then I would apologize. And she said something I realize that I should not have apologized is that I don’t even know what’s wrong and I said sorry.

About a week later, yesterday, I went out with my friends. I completely forgot to tell her that I was coming back home a bit later. Thus, she sent me SMS. So I reply I was still outside. She replied with “ It’s okay. If I don’t ask, you didn’t bother to tell. I don’t want to know anymore. You can go enjoy.”

I was upset and of course I replied sorry.

She replied “nah, I’m not. Used to getting sorry from you, wasn’t the first time also. Even without knowing what happen, I also can get from you cool uh”

That’s okay, I mention in my next SMS why I said sorry and etc. Next is a few MIA from her and in between there’s few SMS from me to her.

During midnight, she sent a Facebook message to me around 1.22am by that time I have already fall asleep.

The content:

Thought it through, think it's time to voice out. You think it's bad luck, but I don't think so. Does it apply to this? I'm unsure, if it's not then I've mistaken. Sorry. Many of times, you makes me feel that you couldn't even bother or pretended nothing happen. I didn't tell until now because I doesn't want to have argument and hopping to keep a "good" relationship. Maybe I shouldn't care too much or maybe I've thought too much. So much of sorry you given me, but that wasn't what I need. What's the point saying sorry and repeating it? I wondered. Time indeed changes people, isn't it? So much different I get at first and now. Sorry if I've mistaken you and hope I'm not putting any pressure on you. P/s: I love you.

Wednesday, 28th July, 2010

Freely Chosen Module.

As I walk, I seek for an answer.

Vex about how the thing is going through, woke up early in the morning.

Either we choose different module or we choose the same.

Knowing that she will have alot of fun, I will not stop her.

Just too worry for her.

Have to know what is good for both of us in the end.

Else end up in a difficult postition.

Thursday, 22 July, 2010

Dont really know if there still anyone viewing this blog.

So I guess its time to close this blog and keep everything simple on fb when updating people that care about me.

The schedule are always packed with schools work like FYP and UTs, its like a repetition. There's not much time left for personal space. Schools sucks.

Hoping my relationship will last as long as possible thats what I really want from the start till the end.

Will get to doc again this upcoming YOG week with Danny. Hope to find a cure.

Thats all.

Bye.

Thursday, 15 July, 2010

Its not as simple as what other people think.

Maybe its my fault that I did not spend time thinking.

Maybe its my fault that I make the our relationship look perfect.

Maybe its my fault that I rushed thing to fast, one step faster you make a mistake, one step slower I afraid and regret of not taking the risk.

Maybe its my fault.

Or maybe its just my excuses.

Monday, 12 July, 2010

One more hour and its our 2 month anniversary.

:D

Here I am blogging about how I feel about this r/s.

The feeling is like ridin' on a roller coaster.

There are always some up and down and don't know what thing will happen next.

When things happen too of a sudden, it's like the train went upside down.

This few day kept dreaming of her.

Hope we can last long.

Saturday, 10 July, 2010

Had a great time with YJ ytd, we skip school and went dating :x

Even during sleeping time, I dream of her.

I miss her now and then, wish we could have stay nearer to each other.

Our second month is coming!! Yay!!

Hope we can do well in our next 2 UT and then go on a 3 week vacation and lastly do well for UT3.

Sunday, 4 July, 2010

UT coming.

Had fun this past few days with YJ.

I think sometimes I asked her too much questions and seems like concerning is becoming a kind of bother to her.

Sushi again? :D

Tuesday, 29 June, 2010

Nice meal today, roti John and prata.

Surprise ZW today.

Don't feel good now, sick.

Sunday, 27 June, 2010

After seeing the daily grades I had, I think is time I work really hard.

The C's keep flowing in -.-

A dont remember me and Bs lost it way.

I hope I can get good grades from now on and also my UTs and FYP.

Well, where is she now?

Must be too busy to eat her dinner and packing up before knocking off.

Looking foreward to the three week holiday.

Friday, 25 June, 2010. Noon

I hope to hear her rant again.

Really miss her rant. now she seldom speak.

I dont know what to do, I tried my best explaining and telling her how sorry I am.

None of us want to end, so why not give her more time to think. :)

Hope to hear eu and see ur smile again.

Thursday, 24 June, 2010

Blame it on me.

I dont hate the way she treat me this way.

Once again, I destroy my own happiness.

I rmb I wanted to go into this relationship is because of I want to bring hope, liveliness and enthusiasm into the life of her.

And not saddness and darkness to her life.

Noon, 24 June 2010

How stupid of me.

When she's upset, she'll keep quiet.

So she kept quiet means she upset.

How?

Tonight's gonna be another long long night.

23rd, June, 2010

Hi guys :)

Thanks for the concern.

:D

Monday, 14 June, 2010

Well, I know I might not be any better looking than you.

I know eu are jealous because you did not get her.

Eu know yourself well enough, I heard alot about you and definetly eu can get whatever girl eu want.

Stories like you;this type of playboy, I heard alot.

Keep hating for all eu want,

or

you can clear out before I help eu?

You all really thought I am a wound horse ready to be put to sleep?

Think again.

Idk whether eu all are siding him or laughing tgt with him.

I can be very kind, but dont take my kindness for my weakness.

:)

Sunday, 13 June, 2010

Totally forget ytd was one month.

OMG -.-

Help help.

Friday, 4 June, 2010

Today want down with Orchard to submit the IC and particular for the Job.

Roam around at there and went off before 6.

Rest well and take care. :D

Tueesday, 1 June, 2010

Saying and doing are indeed two different things.

Its not as simple as saying, the difficult part is really how to excute the plan and do what had already plan to.

I never thought it will be that difficult...

...seriously...

Sunday, 30 May, 2010

She needs to work today.

So, have nothing much to do except watch NBA matches in the morning.

Her phone no batt, cant msg me much.

While waiting for her, I fell asleep.

When I woke up she still not back yet.

So I leave offline msg on her msn and skype.

Mind say car mum say house bro say depends.

Friday, 28 May, 2010

Vesak day and holiday!!

So decided to go out.

Totally no idea to go with her alr.

But anyway, came back home earlier than expected, she went to find her dad.

Wont be seeing her the next few day I guess. LOL

Friday, 21 May, 2010

Fear of something.
I dont like it.

Thursday, 20 May, 2010

Busy with UT, NAFA and FYP.

Holyshit, my holiday are ruin by FYP meeting.

We gona chiong first, so that at the later semester, we then can relax and do adjustments.

Hope its true not like the movie Warlords.
Say war for 3yrs and go home, end up take more than 3yrs.

Friday, 14 May, 2010

Sigh.

I dont know, how to make eu speak.

I dont know, how to make eu feel happy when eu are down.

But I will always be there for eu, if eu need me.

Thursday, 12 May, 2010

Tired.

I know.

I hope you tell me more.

Wednesday, 12 May, 2010

What were you all doing during 2.45pm?

I was holding her hand.

Yet she's still dont know what relationship we had.

GOSH!-.-

Esclators, hold hand, reach level, wisher into her ear.

Monday, 10 May, 2010

I never felt so confuse and scare.

My deepest fear.

I dont know how to, but courage is needed.

Feeling so miserable when I did not say out. So worng
Feeling so miserable when I say out. So wrong.
Feeling so miserable when I say out and did not get a certain answer. So wrong

Only a shallow person will fancy someone for her looks. What if one day, age catches up and confiscates the person's youth and looks? Personality is the deciding factor that last for eternity.

Sunday, 9 May, 2010

Mother day,

Happy mother day :D

My mum, don't want a expensive present from me.
My mum, don't want to dine out.
My mum, don't want cake from Bakerzin.
My mum only want a simple MacDonald meal.

"Ah boy ar, Filet-O-Fish meal ar..."

Apart from this, today she need to work.

So, need to wait for her to get home. Hope she's not tired. : D (she should be back by now, naooooo)

Very nice chain sms received from Danny;

If one day you feel like crying call me. I cant promise that I will make you laugh.
But I can cry with you.

If one day you want to runaway, dont be afraid to call me.
I promise I wont ask you to stop but I can run with you.

If one day you dont want to listen to anyone, call me.
I promise to be there for you but also promise to remain quiet.

But one day if you call and there is no answer, come fast to see me.

Perhaps I need you...

Saturday, 8 May, 2010

Yesterday, I did surprised her with the MAC breakfast.

After school she surprised me.

We went to Airport to grab a bite.

After that, I sent her home.

This is the first time I sent her home. I was stun by where she stay.

On the way back home, I was scare, confuse and mix feeling.

Was on a train but I felt like it was a roller coaster ride.

I really wish she can make a decision ASAP.

Mind was full of her every night we went offline.

Friday, 7 May, 2010

I am very sorry that, I fly aeroplane on you guys.

I will explain to all of you sometime when all of us are free.

I want to spend more time with her now. I dont want to miss this chance.

Thank you CAI, JN, WENTING, XIU MIN and Pierre giving me advice and time spent.

Wednesday, 5 May, 2010

Very excited.

The whole day I was very happy.

My heartbeat go faster and faster every sec I was with her.

I just want to give her a good impression.

Now tired le, but very happy :D

Tuesday, 4 May, 2010

Oh no.

The feeling is so awesome when you are going out with soemone you have been dreaming for a very long time.

I cant describe the feeling.

Oh no.

Monday, 3 May, 2010

Today, Monday, lesson was dry and bored.

As usual.

Was waiting. She did not attend the class, maybe she was tired after the trip.

Anyway, welcome back :D

Saturday, 1 May, 2010

So, the day start by having a good breakfast and the Lakers advanced to second round.

Currently planning for future.

Thinking about how I should spend my holidays.

Cycling! Swimming! Outing! FYP-.-!!

I guess the up coming holiday will be a fulfulling one. Till then.

Friday, 30 April, 2010

She's leaving for Genting tonight.

Heart feeling crampy because I don't know whether I should call her or not.

Seems like she had already left for Genting since she is offline.

Can't move foreward when I am sitting down.

I think of her every now and then as many times I blink my eyes.

I just don't understand.

Thinking of the past, the secondary school life I had.

It was fun and I learned alot of things, there's always teacher and friends show their care and concern directly to us.

Sigh. Things and thinking changed when people grow up.

Miss PE lesson and alot of crazy things my friends and I done during our secondary school life.

I told myself I won't miss my secondary school and friends as I thought we will always stay together and go to the same polytechnic.

Someone invent time machine please.

Perhaps, tonight I might dream of the past.

Wednesday, 28 April, 2010

Afternoon.

Wake up early.
Was waiting.

I just don't know how to and when to.

Tuesday, 27 April, 2010

When you are not that perfect and don't have the wow factor...

you just have to work extra extra extra hard.

=D

Sunday, 25 April, 2010

Feeling better now. Like naooooooo.

Bounty Hunter is not a bad movie after all.

SMS-ing and MSN-ing you was the toughest thing to do nowadays.

I don't know what to talk abt and I don't know where to end the convo.

I know its late and as long as you are still online, I can sleep lesser and later, so that I can chat with you more.

Saturday, 24 April, 2010

Before I end my day, before I shut down my computer, I must blog about this!

Today is a boring day adn I don't feel well :(

Goodnight!

Friday, 23 April, 2010

No more wearing of slipper to school.

Project management module is extremely bored. Feel like going home and my throat is uncomfortable.

Not paying attention to people presenting and having a hard time doing my quiz. :(

Got home and get my RJ done ASAP.

Sigh, weekend is always so boring.

I want to buy something but I don't know what to get!

It get tougher each day.

Dont hunt what you cant kill...

Different background, different personaility.

On top of that, news from my friend makes me disappointed and dishearted.

Having a hard time making decision today.

Stuck in middle of nowhere, don't know wheather to forward of take a back sit.

If only I can read her mind.

But the truth is no.

School work are killing me and I just can't adapt to these changes.

As usual...

Wake up, wash up, bus and then train to RP.

Quality Control was tough and ppl kept telling me the faci and me look alike. LOL

Trying my very best.

If I fail this time, I will keep trying.

Do it for the moment.

Studying globalisation today. Was confusing and tough at first but went well after all.

MSN game helps in creating topic? I hope so.

Sometimes I wonder, why I did all these little thing.

Hope she is alright. Rest well :)

Why Why Why???

Should be heading to bed, but still chatting on msn and finding nice music!

Happy Weekend!!

Her eyes are big!

First day.

Everything went fine.

People are really good. =)

One thing for sure, I did not regret signing IEP up!!

People changes with time or time changes people?

Are you ready?

School start tml.

Guess what will happen??

How will the class going to break the ice??

I definetly have no idea. But hope everything turn out fine such as their attitude and character. =)

So once again,

Are you ready??

Back to school.

School starting soon.

Some love it some hate it.

For me I think I am on the neutral side. =S

School starts and I will keep myself busy!!!

The best part is I will get to see her everyday!! LOL?!

FYP meeting today was fun. No doubt we will have a tough job scope.
But we promised to ourself that we are going to try our very best to come up with a awesome database as requested.

Shall end here.