I don’t like what’s happened recently. L
Lately she’s been moody and I knew something happened and I just can’t get to know what had really happened. I asked and asked but she would keep saying nothing and nothing and more nothing. And when I really tried asking for the very last time she would say it’s too late to even ask. I don’t really know what I can do to make her speak up more. I comfort her and gave her time to open up to me by not giving her too much pressure but still nothing was explain by her.
At this point of time, I thought maybe it’s my fault that I upset her or something. So I apologize and mention that if I upset her or something then I would apologize. And she said something I realize that I should not have apologized is that I don’t even know what’s wrong and I said sorry.
About a week later, yesterday, I went out with my friends. I completely forgot to tell her that I was coming back home a bit later. Thus, she sent me SMS. So I reply I was still outside. She replied with “ It’s okay. If I don’t ask, you didn’t bother to tell. I don’t want to know anymore. You can go enjoy.”
I was upset and of course I replied sorry.
She replied “nah, I’m not. Used to getting sorry from you, wasn’t the first time also. Even without knowing what happen, I also can get from you cool uh”
That’s okay, I mention in my next SMS why I said sorry and etc. Next is a few MIA from her and in between there’s few SMS from me to her.
During midnight, she sent a Facebook message to me around 1.22am by that time I have already fall asleep.
The content:
Thought it through, think it's time to voice out. You think it's bad luck, but I don't think so. Does it apply to this? I'm unsure, if it's not then I've mistaken. Sorry. Many of times, you makes me feel that you couldn't even bother or pretended nothing happen. I didn't tell until now because I doesn't want to have argument and hopping to keep a "good" relationship. Maybe I shouldn't care too much or maybe I've thought too much. So much of sorry you given me, but that wasn't what I need. What's the point saying sorry and repeating it? I wondered. Time indeed changes people, isn't it? So much different I get at first and now. Sorry if I've mistaken you and hope I'm not putting any pressure on you. P/s: I love you.
